After last week’s loss of Aiden, the Monroe family mourn by listening to one of Aiden’s Run Mixes and we’re treated to Nine Inch Nails’ “Somewhat Damaged.” Meanwhile, Carol bakes a casserole for them (and spies Sam in the window), because that’s what you do when you’re trying to keep up appearances. This is becoming ever more of a problem for Sasha, whose harried eyes and frantic movements in the tower suggest she hasn’t been spending much time with living humans – or sleeping.
The song and candlelit ambiance get to be too much for Reg, who tearfully requests they shut the song off and a knock is heard on their front door. Deanna finds Carol’s casserole with a note, “We’re truly sorry for your loss.” Deanna takes the note inside, leaving the casserole on the doorstep (oh snap!), then burns the note in her special Burn Notes on the Coffee Table Tray. Shots fired! Literally: Sasha is in the tower obsessively picking off walkers. Outside, Aaron and Daryl remark on how many walkers they’re finding near Alexandria recently. Aaron wonders if any people are around, just as Daryl spots a far off light in the woods.
Nicholas and Glen are each giving their account of last week’s gruesome and loss-filled run, Nicholas to Deanna and her camera (FOR POSTERITY) and Glen to Rick. Needless to say, it’s two different versions of events and one of them is pointedly inaccurate. Nicholas tells Deanna that Aiden was trying to save the group from a roamer but Glen “distracted him,” as Glen tells Rick about spotting the grenades on the walker and trying to stop Aiden from blowing everyone to bits. Nicholas says the rest of the group just wanted to bail on Aiden after he’d become impaled on the forklift while Glen tells Rick all about how Nicholas lost his mind and literally ran away. Nicholas insists that he wasn’t going to leave Aiden, and Deanna asks about Tara and he says he wasn’t going to leave her, either. Glen tells Rick how they made Nicholas stay because they couldn’t save Aiden without his help. Nicholas implies they all walked to the lobby rationally, but Glen recounts that all Nicholas had to do was hold the door and they all could have made it. Nicholas says Glen was hitting the glass and pushing his door open, purposefully trying to kill him, while Glen tells Rick how Nicholas panicked. Nicholas claimed if he hadn’t pushed back he would have died, too, but Glen says he tried hard to save Noah but because of Nicholas, he ended up watching Noah die right in front of him instead.
Nicholas continues to blame Glen and their group for what happened, so Deanna asks how, amid all this strife, they were all able to ride back together. And Nicholas gets shifty as Spencer speaks up off camera, wondering if now is the time for this interview and Nicholas looks a little relieved that he doesn’t have to answer the question. Deanna declares that no one will use guns or travel outside the walls and Nicholas is weirdly upset about that? He tells her Rick and Co. have to go, they’re not like Alexandrians, and he knows she sees it, too. She’s like, “Pssh, you don’t know what I see.” Then we see she’s been watching this interview again, presumably employing her poker skills.
Glen says he almost left Nicholas out there and made up a story about how he “got killed” or something, and Rick is like, “Er, why didn’t you? They don’t know anything, any of them.” Glen says they can teach them, because this is their life now. Rick says this place is cool but their rules completely suck for this world but Glen says they are Alexandrians now, so they have to teach them because THIS HAS TO WORK! Glen is obviously worried about having to live the rough life again, but Rick remains unconvinced and goes home.
There he finds Carol on the porch, who has just watched Sam yank his arm away from Jessie across the way and go inside, upset. Carol tells Rick that she sent the Monroes a casserole because “that’s what you do,” and fills him in on the most recent of her knowledge of the Neighbor Saga.
Carol: Have you thought about Pete, about what I said? Talked to Sam some more. He said his mom put a bolt on the inside of his closet and tells him to lock himself in sometimes and not come out until morning. He said he can hear his dad yelling, things breaking, his mom crying. Last month, it got quiet right in the middle of it and he went out and found her on the floor, unconscious and bleeding. Pete was just sitting on the porch.
Rick: Why do you care what happens to Jessie?
Carol: You know why. And I know why you do.
Carol: Is that a real question?
I mean, really, is it? Come on, Rick. We all know if you could go live in Jessie’s house and be her husband rightnow, you’d do it, no questions asked. Carol says that if walkers had gotten Ed way back when, she wouldn’t be standing here now, but Rick doesn’t agree. He takes a walk with his pistol and he really has some pent up aggression. Just then, Pete happens by with a goofy grin on his dumb face and Rick has murder in his eyes.
Rick: Keep walking.
Pete: What? What are you –
And Rick fixes him with that stare until Pete walks away and I feel like the stare might have given Pete a heart attack if he’d been sober enough to catch on faster. Rick clutches his gun and I marvel at his restraint.
Michonne is waking up for another day as constable and she seems to be struggling (isn’t everyone?). Identity issues, I think? As she lays her police clothes on the bed, Rosita knocks. Rosita says Tara is stable (is that what Rosita does? She’s, like, a Medical Assistant or something?) – and that she thinks Sasha spent the night in the tower. Abraham is on duty there now, but Sasha hasn’t been seen since last night when she went on duty. Michonne grabs a gun and the two head out into the woods.
Rosita leads Michonne to Sasha’s target practice arena we saw in “Forget.” Rosita saw her coming out here with her rifle before, and as they hear a twig snap, they both realize this is the first time they’ve been outside the walls since arriving at Alexandria. Rosita says it’s a good thing that it feels different to her but Michonne disagrees, and Rosita says Michonne seems screwed up because they found something.
Michonne: Noah’s dead. And I think- I just feel like I was asleep in there.
Rosita: You were trying to forget, so you could try.
Michonne: But I don’t want to forget.
Rosita: So don’t, but that doesn’t mean you have to give up. You didn’t bring your sword with you. That’s not nothing.
Rick visits Deanna who is visiting graves. He gives his condolences and tells her they have a problem with Pete, so she’s like, “Ugh, he’s hitting Jessie again?”
Rick: You knew?!
Deanna: Pete’s a surgeon. We need him.
Rick: That’s crap. We have to stop him from hitting her because it’s only going to get worse.
Deanna: And what are we supposed to do?
Rick: Separate them and tell them that’s how it’s going to be from now on.
Deanna: And what happens when he doesn’t want to do that?
Rick: He doesn’t have a choice. I kill him. We kill him.
Deanna: No, we don’t kill people. We’re civilized.
Rick: Warning someone to stop or die is civilized in this world!
Deanna: We don’t kill, we can exile him.
Rick: If you let him go, you’re leaving yourselves vulnerable to him attacking later.
Deanna: You are not executing anyone.
Rick: People die now, Deanna, but times like this, you can decide who and when, or it can be decided for you.
Deanna: But I wouldn’t kill you. I’d just send you away.
And Rick would come back and take that place with the fire of a thousand suns! She’s seriously mistaken with this train of thought, but okay. Civilization. Michonne and Rosita come to Sasha’s fave target spot and finds a couple of walkers shot execution style, which is Sasha’s trademark, apparently. Michonne says Sasha is hunting the walkers now.
Carl is following Enid again and she calls him out. She asks him to go back to Alexandria because, honestly, he scares her a little. He says she shouldn’t sneak out alone because two people just died and Enid’s like, “Please, people always die. You know that, you’re not new.” So Carl’s like, “What do you even do out here, anyway?” And she takes off because they obviously have to run and jump like kids want and need to do when they’re unsupervised in the woods during the zombie apocalypse. It’s really sweet. They run into a walker so Enid winds and throws a kitchen timer to distract it. (Instead of killing it? Oh, okay.)
Elsewhere, Glen rolls up on Nicholas.
Glen: Nicholas, don’t talk. Just listen. Those four people you lost on that run, that’s on you. And Noah, that’s on you, too. Those five lives, you have to carry that. Cowards like you are supposed to be dead, but these walls went up just in time, so you’re not. You don’t go outside those walls anymore. Not for yourself, not with anyone else, and that’s how you’re going to survive.
Nicholas: Who the hell do you think you are?
Glen: I’m someone who knows who you are and what you did. And it’s not going to happen again.
Nicholas: I’ve been protecting and providing for this place. You just got here!
Glen: Don’t forget what I said.
Nicholas: Are you threatening me?
No, I’m just telling you that if zombies try to eat you again, I’m not saving you. No, I’m saving you.
Enid loves frolicking in the woods and she feels like they’re supposed to feel that mix of anxiety and worry with their happiness to really respect the world now and she doesn’t want to forget. Running makes her feel better, but Carl can’t forget. He says he dreams about it all the time, and Enid says she does, as well. Carl awkwardly brings up Ron and Enid says Ron doesn’t know she comes out to the woods because “he wouldn’t understand.” Enid pulls out a knife that belonged to her mother and Carl asks Enid what happened to her before she came to Alexandria. She says it doesn’t matter and he says it does, that bad things happened to him, too. Then walkers snarl and the kids are conveniently right next to a hollow tree that they both fit inside of, so Carl and Enid hide as the walkers trudge past them. Carl grazes her hand and probably experiences his first sexual feelings ever and Enid is amused that she scares him, too.
Nicholas is somewhere, frantically digging at the base of a tree and unearths a can with a gun in it. *hard sigh* And out in the woods, Sasha picks off a group of walkers and another at a distance, just as Michonne and Rosita find her.
Rosita: Why are you doing this?
Sasha: I’m sick of playing defense.
Michonne: So you’re just going to take on all of them?
O-kay! Sasha marches forward with Rosita and Michonne in tow as a group of 20 or so walkers shamble toward them, and Sasha is both crazed and gleeful. One by one, she picks them off and Michonne sees flashbacks of herself, putting herself in dangerous situations to express her rage at walkers in this same way (well, she used a sword). She takes aim and Sasha is like, “I don’t need your help.” Michonne’s all, “Whatever, this isn’t for you,” and she and Rosita help Sasha take out this horde. A walker slaughter ensues and Sasha runs out of bullets and has to switch to her knife but is overcome by a walker. As Sasha tries to reach for her gun, Michonne kills the walker and Sasha is pissed.
Sasha: I had it! I don’t need your help! I told you to go! You-you can’t do anything! It worked out for you! Don’t you see that? You can’t help me! Noah…I told him he wouldn’t make it.
Sasha’s real issues have come bubbling to the surface. If we’re to accept a Michonne parallel in Sasha, then she simply hasn’t had the time to let go of her grief the way Michonne has yet because the moments of her grief are very recent. Sasha walks away and Michonne and Rosita exchange a look and a sigh.
Daryl and Aaron have continued their quest during the break of day and come upon dismembered body pieces. Daryl is on high alert and says this just happened as they move forward. Then they approach a naked human woman, tied to a tree with her abdomen ripped open.
Aaron: She’s tied up. And they fed on her. Tore her apart. This just happened?
Daryl lifts her head and we see a “W” carved into her forehead and it looks like we’ve got a madman on our hands! The woman opens her eyes as a new walker and Daryl stabs her in the forehead. :(
Rick pays Neighbor Jessie a visit in her garage, where she’s stress smoking.
Rick: He’s hitting you. He’s hurting you. It has to stop.
Jessie: It will.
Jessie: There are things in his life that happened –
Rick: I don’t care.
Jessie: Look, things have been like this before, and I fixed it. Just let me fix it.
Rick: No, you can’t, but I can.
Jessie: What are you going to do, put him in jail? You’re only going to make things worse.
Rick: If things have gotten worse, that means he’s killed you and I’m not going to let that happen.
Jessie: Why do you care? Why is this so important to you? You’ve made it, you have a home for your kids. Rick, what are you doing?
Rick: I’m trying to help.
Jessie: I don’t know that. I’m married. I can take care of myself!
She marches inside and shuts the garage door on Rick, who strolls out to an intersection and spies several examples of carefree life and it’s…overwhelming him? He turns back and marches into Jessie’s house through the front door.
Rick: You know Sam asked for a gun, to protect you?
Jessie: You shouldn’t be here.
Rick: You can’t see it, but it’s the same. It’s the same as out there. We have food and roofs over our heads here, but you don’t get to just live. If you don’t fight, you die. And I don’t want you to die. I can help you. I can keep you and your boys safe. I can. All you have to do is say yes.
Jessie: Would you do this for someone else? Would you do this for anyone?
Of course not, Jessie, you know I love you! …No.
Then Pete comes downstairs and wonders what the hell is going on here. He’s probably been daydrinking because his face emotes every moment of realization he has. Pete tries to kick Rick out, but Jessie says Pete should leave instead. Pete is becoming aggressive wants to know what Jessie and Rick have been saying to each other. Jessie sticks to her guns and tells Pete he has to go. Rick says he and Pete are leaving now.
Pete: You think you’re the law? You think you actually have a say in anything here?
Rick: Step back.
Pete: Who the hell do you think you are?
Rick: Someone who’s trying not to kill you.
Pete takes a swing and a miss, and Rick swings back. Pete catches Rick, too, and then they’re full-on fighting. Pete bangs Rick’s head up against the stairwell and the next thing you know the two hurl through the front window! Back in her perch Sasha notices the Rick Brawl and it’s gathering a large crowd. Rick and Pete are alternately tearing each other down. Jessie tries to pull Pete off Rick and Pete backhands her, and Carl tries to pull Rick off Pete and Rick pushes him off. Rick has Pete in a choke hold as Deanna screams for them to knock it off and Crazy Rick takes over. Sasha is in the tower still picking off a large amount of walkers who have approached Alexandria’s walls (including one with a “W” carved into its forehead). And wearing his blood mask, Rick pulls his gun out for a speech and waves it around liberally.
Rick: You gonna kick me out?
Deanna: Put that gun down, Rick.
Rick: You still don’t get it. None of you do! We know what needs to be done, and we do it. We’re the ones who live! You, you just sit and plan and hesitate, and pretend like you know but you don’t! You wish things weren’t what they are. Well, you want to live? You want this place to stay standing? Your way of doing things is gone. Things don’t get better because you want them to. Starting right now, we have to live in the real world. We have to control who lives here.
Deanna: That’s never been more apparent to me than right now.
Rick: Me? You mean me? Your way is gonna destroy this place. It’s going to get people killed. It’s already gotten people killed. And I’m not gonna stand by and just let it happen. If you don’t fight, you die. I’m not gonna stand by –
And Michonne whacks him with the butt of her pistol, knocking him out!
The Questions: Oh, so many! This is a very explicit allegiance choice for Michonne, is it not? What’s Maggie up to? How are we going to get Sasha help dealing with her grief? Does Deanna think they can just exile Rick now? What would happen to Carl and Judith? Are they actually going to deal with Pete now (I mean, he did start the fight)? And seriously, what does Rosita do in Alexandria?